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The Weight of Change

The weight of change is something I live with each day.  I am not the man I was four years ago.  Yes I have always been conservative but not for the right reasons.  You see four years ago I was blissfully living in the illusion that surrounds us each day.  I knew what the Constitution was but did not really know what it meant to me.  I spent a military career raising my right hand every four years swearing to support and defend a document that I was only slightly aware of its importance.  I was the product of a public education that provided a very watered down version of our history and this was back in the 1980s.  So like most sleepers, I fell into a routine of loving sports, playing online computer games, and basically living for the day.  I thought I knew more than I actually did.  Many times I debated liberals and lost because I simply did not have the knowledge.  My conservatism was shallow and empty and I was an embarrassment to the movement.

Then something happened four years ago that seemed harmless enough; I purchased satellite radio.  The original intent was to satisfy my hunger for sports.  I couldn’t get enough of it from NASCAR to college and pro football.  I remember 2006 because that is the year my wife and I went to the metrodome in Minneapolis to see the Penn State Nittany Lions play the Minnesota Gophers on Saturday then on Sunday we returned to watch our Minnesota Vikings play Detroit.  It was a carefree life I was living without any worries.  I had no concerns about our Constitution or the Republic.  Then that darn satellite radio changed everything.  I discovered conservative talk radio and soon found myself listening to it every day whenever I could squeeze it in.  The more I listen, the more I began to realize how much I was missing and how much I didn’t know.  By the time the election rolled around I was emailing friends and family about the dangers of voting for Obama.  I began to read.

I reached the conclusion that I needed to relearn history.  I needed to be better informed than the opposition.  The first book I purchased was the 5,000 Year Leap and it changed my life.  It was the one book that opened my eyes to the fact that we were so far off from where we started.  I realized that the reason things were failing was because we were not following the principles our Founding Fathers embedded in the foundation of our Republic.  That was only two years ago.  Since then I have read a number of books pertaining to the Founding Fathers, the Constitution, and the free market system.  In late 2009 I returned home to help my mother and confronted the opposition.  He is a childhood friend that embraces the liberal ideology; however this time I was armed with knowledge and facts.  For the first time, I picked apart is position until he yielded to the facts.  Two years earlier I would have reached a point in the debate where I lost my temper, but not this time.  I had him on the ropes and he knew it.

I continue read so that I may broaden the scope of my knowledge.  I’m currently reading A Patriot’s History of the United States.  I’m now awake and have a strong love and understanding of our Constitution.  I now know why it is so important for us to support and defend it with our lives if required.  But with this awakening there is a weight that is attached to it.  You see I changed on the inside which transformed me into something different.  This weight is a heavy load that those that are awake carry every day.  We see the dangers and understand that the path this nation is heading on could lead to its destruction.  At times we feel helpless to change the course of events.  We see the forces of tyranny maneuvering to steal our liberties everytime a crisis arises.  We see this while others sleep and it weighs on us.  Sports matter less to me now because there are more important priorities.  Even my friendships have changed.  I no longer waste my time trying to convince some kool-aide drinker why the free market system works and the importance of adhering to the Constitution.  If they don’t get it or are not self motivated enough to take the time and learn about it I won’t be able to convince them of anything.  They’ll see me as nothing more than a right-wing extremist peddling snake oil.  Even though the message is about preserving their rights they’ll twist it with all the left’s talking points.  The truth is some people simply will not change.  Real change is a scary thing because it forces you to face the person you see in the mirror every day.

However there are a number of people that are undecided that can be reached and that is where my focus is concentrated.  These are people that tend to keep an open mind and are willing to listen to ideas.  Now not all of them will buy into liberty and freedom, but many will.

Yes I have indeed changed and sometimes I wonder if the weight of the change is worth it.  I mean after all life was much easier living in bliss.  It was simpler to live for the day.  Yes the weight is heavy but in the end it is nothing as compared to what our Founders gave up to secure our freedoms.  Most gave up their entire fortunes for the opportunity for self government.  They wanted the freedom of choice.

So why are so many willing to just give this away.  Maybe because the weight of change is heavy and it’s easier to live life in ignorance enjoying football games and American Idol.  As for me, I’ll take the weight of this kind of change every day of the week and push my sports off for a bit…at least until I know the Republic is safe again.

Liberty forever, freedom for all!


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  • The Born Again American June 28, 2010 at 10:54 AM

    Fantastic Post…

    My awakening was about three years ago when I was having lunch with my brother the infamous (L) on our blog… He said there's this guy on CNN that you ought to watch… Of course the guy turned out to be Glen Beck and the rest is history… I read The 5000 Year Leap among many others and now we are currently going through the DVD study course offered by the Center for Constitutional Studies… We're on Principle #12 with several friends we met through our 9/12 group… (it's a great course)

    Yes if ignorance truly is bliss, I used to be happy as a clam… Today I'm scolding my classmates on Facebook for their lack of caring…

    I must admit I'll take a little time off when college football starts up… GO GATORS!!!

  • Matt June 28, 2010 at 5:38 PM

    That is a great post John. I know I woke up after grad school. I started working and quickly realized that what I was taught was utter nonsense. Snarky Basterd, and some other friends got me looking into an explanation for that failure. There was no WWW at that point, so it was only talk radio and books for me.

    It's great to see how others "woke up." I, for one, can safely say that I am glad that you did.

  • John Carey June 28, 2010 at 9:03 PM

    I have to tell you BO, when I finally woke up it was like someone threw ice water on me. There is no turning back now.

  • John Carey June 28, 2010 at 9:08 PM

    You know Matt, I felt the same way when I finished my undergraduate degree. I finished up with four years of school and it felt like I was shortchanged. I decide that I needed to find the answers that could not be found in the college classroom. I'm glad I did…no regrets

  • Anonymous June 28, 2010 at 10:25 PM

    I feel like the current administration is leading us into a f-ed up version of pure imagination. kind of like this Its all lolly pops and Gum drops until our republic patently falls apart. I will carry the burden.

  • John Carey June 28, 2010 at 11:13 PM

    Thanks anonymous.

  • Trestin July 20, 2010 at 8:34 AM

    John, I'm going to make this post part of a new feature on my blog this Thursday.

  • John Carey July 20, 2010 at 4:55 PM

    Ok Trestin and thanks.